SoulPancake

not being able to get home fast enough if something happens to one of my family members making it so i don't get to say goodbye.

I'm afraid that my kids are growing up and i have to get a job,(one that comes with a pay check.) This kind of change scares me. Not so much the work part but the shift of these 2 lovely being not being part of my daily existence.Not knowing what that looks like makes me unsure and afraid.

i'm afraid of maybe not being able to accomplish anything worth looking back to when i'm old or dead... i'm afraid to think that maybe my life was unfulfilled... basically my head is filled with pride and i have to live up to my own expectations, but at the same time being humble. i'm afraid of not being able to live up with my pride and failing the name of humility.

Honestly, not being able to pay my bills.

dieing alone. going to hell.

the fact that one day, the people i love the most will be gone.

I'm afraid of beign ignored by someone I love who I thought cared about me, and suddenly BAM, it's like I don't exist.
And I guess of myself, in the sense of beign myself in front of other people.
Oh, and cockroaches, but I'm getting over that.

@etie Yeah...when a certain family member of mine dies, I will probably require professional help. I hate to sound stupid, but I hate FEELING so much. It's like my emotions are supersized.
Like this past week has been one of the worst of my entire life, literally, and I am planning to drink SO much tonight. Sometimes I need to forget stuff, and I choose self-defeating ways of doing so.

@kellioso > this is exactly what i'm afraid of the most.
only i would add losing a family member too soon. we're so close and i haven't faced the death of a close family member yet and i'm scared of the day i will. terrified.

I'm afraid of many things. I'm afraid of the dark. I'm afraid of dead things, deep water, ants...I'm afraid of making decisions, I'm afraid of being afraid....